The Empress... displeased (frequently)

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It is amazing to me that human beings come into this world knowing basically three things - how to suck, how to eliminate, and how to cry. Of these three, crying is the only one that is not a purely somatic function - it expresses emotion. Thus it appears we are born knowing how to experience unhappiness but have to learn anything beyond that. Contentedness only comes while asleep. I wonder what this means... existentially.

My own private Knox

The Empress...

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...is my own personal crazy wisdom teacher:

She is totally unpredictable. One moment she is smiling broadly, but that big grin turns into a pinched, about-to-cry face in a second. OK, three, maybe. And I have no clue why this happened. And there's nothing I can do to prevent it. I can't freeze her at happiness – she just flows from ecstasy to wrath and back again.

She is unreasonable. If she wants to be fed at 2:46 am, even if she just fed at 1:31 am, then fed she will be. So what if "they" say babies eat every three to four hours at this age. Huh! Then again, she might want to stare at that black picture frame for twenty minutes, and please don't shift her position while she is preoccupied with this.

She insults those who love her most. I am reading right now that the real purpose of a spiritual friend is to insult you. I had no better example than when I kissed her and she let out a big fart in response.

And to all this I respond with unquestioned devotion and commitment. A true spiritual relationship – intimate, surrendered, and filled with tears and excrement.